Thin Skin

News Flash.

I am aware of my flaws. I have many of them.

Here are a select few: i'm too loud (especially after drinking), i'm self centred (count the # of times i use the word "i" in this rant), i'm a slob (which is why you haven't been invited over lately, and if you have been over lately, i apologize), i'm fat, i have bad breath more often than not, i'm always always late, i'm a little spacey, i can be a real energy sucker - it can be exhausting to spend too much time around me, i'm wildly jealous, i'm a spoiled brat, i'm sketchy, i'm hypersensitive, i'm moody, i'm a drama queen, i'm neurotic, i'm boy crazy, i'm a know-it-all....

See, the point is, i already know these things. No point in overstating the obvious - I mean, you can yell at me if i'm driving you nuts but no need to give me a comprehensive list or anything... i know. Y'all have some too.

i like some of my flaws, others cause me embarrassment and regret. i guess the battle of existence is sorting all that shit out.

There's nothing wrong with my life, i come from a decent family who treat me very well, i have my own digs, i'm going to school (and putting myself into lifelong debt in order to do so), i have nice friends, i have nice stuff, i like my music collection....

but i am really fucking cranky and bitter today. my feelings get hurt too often. i'm perched on my pity pot, as jack would say. i want somebody to take care of me.

i don't want anybody to tell me what i'm doing wrong, or what i should be doing.

where can i get my hands on a thicker skin? i thought i put my time in for that.